now that I have calmed down a tiniest bit

... I want to tell you about my childhood. about my earlier, non-murky, GOOD childhood. the one that I really miss having and go "ha, I used to do and say the stupidest things" about at the same time.

first of all, I really liked taking this transparent paper glue, get it onto my hands and fingers, slap my hands together, sloooowly take them apart and watch myself be Spiderman. those small tendrils of glue really looked like web. sadly, the glue dried quickly enough with such procedures, and I had to pour more and more into my hands over and over again. and then it didn't want to wash away!

on topic of Spidermanly qualities, I'll start off a bit unrelated. see, when it was warm enough and when kids still used to like being out in the playground, I liked running out without my footwear. in summer, it was kind of uncomfy and there were stones I accidentally stepped on, sometimes. and I really liked getting onto a METAL SLIDE that is out there still.

except in summer it was way too hot and I was afraid to get my kiddy butt and feets roasted like some beef, so I preferred to do it closer to autumn.

point is...  without footwear, I could run up the slide without any difficulties, or even just plain climb up it! so that's a Spidermanly action, too.

I liked climbing onto things that weren't trees or garages. I still can't climb trees and poles, and I don't like jumping on garages. boys liked and still like doing it, and I tended to hang out with boys, but my boyishness never got past innocent things like wearing boyish clothing and running around with toy guns.

I don't like toy guns anymore, either - I really don't like pain. back then, I used to, but then someone shot me with a toy rifle - and boy, do those plastic bullets hurt if one lands into your butt or brushes past bare skin...

I liked wearing a glove with skeleton patterns. yeah, just one. or black-with-a-white-spider. it was kinda cool, or so I thought. now I just laugh at my kiddish silliness.

I always liked toy swords! and real swords. I even got to handle a REALLY-REAL sword, once! gosh, I was so delighted to drag and wave it around, haha. I wish I had one, now.

I liked rollerskating. still do, but I just don't like having a backpack with my main set of footwear, and... I am not confident enough to plain rollerskate around without walking inbetween. I can't even do tricks... and brake.

my braking always consisted and will consist of "HELLO, BENCH/WALL/TREE/POLE/PERSON. NICE TO MEET YOU. BYE."

I guess I just don't know where to stop!

but, either way...

I guess I'll post this.

~~~~~~

so I am the happiest person on Earth.

 and I just feel like going around and around, dancing and dancing in ciiircles

'cause I am the happiest person on Earth~

that means I finally GOT THE MAIL. G-G-GOT THE MAIL. GOT THE MAIL. WHO'S GOT THE MAIL? I GOT THE MAIL.

this is the best day ever

I also got a camo hoodie in a shop near the mail place.

and a t-shirt with a smiley face and the word "REBEL" in rather large caps.

large caps. WELLLLCOME TO DEPARTMENT OF REDUNDANCY DEPARTMENT, I HOPE YOUR NICE STAY IS NICE, HOPEFULLY.

so I'm spitting random occasional-caps and I just can't stop!

CANNOT STOP for the unlife of me. yes, I am undead.

A ZOMBIE POWERED BY THE PURE HAAAAAAAAPPY THAT EXISTS AROUND ME.

or maybe I'm a Generator Of Happiness!

the happy generator of happiness~~~~~

can generators dance? hm

hmmmmm.

now I'm a confused generator of happiness.

OH I ALSO HAVE A WEBCAM NOW.

one happy! AH AH AH AH AH

two happy! AH AH AH AH AH

three happy! AH AH AH AH AH

no I really can't stop.

I should just publish this.

go

kola kid is awesome

music.

in other news, I've been playing games of mafia on VDex. it's uh... those games when there's a large number of good old townspeople who don't know who others are and their possible roles, about which I'll tell a bit lower, and a small number of mafia members. townspeople can lynch a person by voting at day, and whoever has the most votes is lynched. of course, mafia can participate in voting too, and potentially fool townspeople into lynching one of their own. mafiosi know each other, and rather obviously know who is NOT mafia. they can kill a person at night, and if the game has specific roles, they may have more than one kill.

now about roles. typical set at vdex is as follows:

vanilla: town or mafia. no special powers, here.

doctor: normally town role. may protect a person from night actions targeting them (that aren't investigation), but can't protect the same person twice in a row. can protect themselves, usually.

detective/cop: town role. may investigate a person at night, either gets both their role and alignment, their alignment or their role.

paranoid detective (paracop): same as above, town role. has some chance to get investigation result as mafia for a townie.

stunner: either town or mafia. may disable someone's night actions. does not work on people protected by doctor, but works on the doctor themselves unless the doctor protected themselves.

silencer: either town or mafia. may rid someone of their ability to vote at day. occasionally disables the ability to post role/alignment theories and speculation. there is a variation when the silencer just makes the person explain their votes in incomprehensible gibberish, which is amusing.

vigilante: town or mafia. can kill at night. self-descriptive.

it's pretty fun!